FRUST!!!!!!

原本就不喜欢....原本就讨厌....原本就想逃跑....原本....原来的原本就是我现在还是一样...没有逃跑...但一样不喜欢...一样讨厌.....

我自认很能玩...玩笑也开得大....但是我才明白这一切是看对象.....你们曾经被别人拿来打赌吗？可能曾经有....但是你不知道....而我？可能曾经被拿来打赌但不知道......可是这次我知道....而且那个感觉一点也不好受......尊重别人也尊重自己....YOUR question was just too insane....dun u know????为什么是我？我看起来很好欺负吗？认识我的人都知道我不好惹.....玩的时候玩....不应该玩的时候不要拿我来开玩笑....这是我....

但是对着原本就不是一国的人....不会明白....我不知道什么时候我变得沉默寡言.....不苟言笑.....这真的是我吗？我无法展露原本的我.....以前那个爱玩爱笑疯狂的我已经消失很久了.....他们常认为我很斯文....看外表来评断一个人.....会不会太肤浅了？？？再漂亮的人也会做坏事.....再斯文的人也会是很凶的....再美丽也会有丑恶的一面.....外表？就能决定一个人？告诉你....外表是拿来骗人的....那些只看外表的都是肤浅差劲的！！！！

我什么时候才能回到以前的那个我？朋友，你们能接受一个安静沉默的我吗？我办不到.....我想念以前的我....那个想说就说....想骂就骂....疯狂傻傻憨憨的我.....我讨厌现在的我....这不是我....怎么可能是我？到底需要多久的时间我才可以变回以前的那个我？5年？10年？还是永远永远回不去？？我不知道.....

现在的我很想回到过去.....让时间停止好吗？就那么一下也好.....i pray Lord....

sorry guys...it's been a long time i din update my blog...juz dunno wat's happening during tis holiday...so??i dun really know d real purpose of holiday now...feeling like so bored..nth to do...but i hope i can use my holiday well....eg. work hard for my hard f6(can i?)haha...nobody knows....who knows wat v happen in d future rite?if u guys can...tell me wat v happen thn...our life i s too long o too short?it depends.....i dunno....well...juz enjoy our life every second...do wat u like n wat u know u cant do when u full grown...u wun regret wat u have done....it's a great memory for u!!!(at least tis is wat i feel)

frenz...all busy v own life...but dun 4get to contact once a while o!!!keep in touch ma....at least we know each other's condition....oh ya,i'm goin to hong kong tis 5dec...but i not yet have enough preparation...not yet feeling great o happy...mayb after today...hahaha....wish me luck ya!!!

happy hour!!!!

haha......very happy!!!goin penang 2 attent my sis convo....me n my family drive ter on 15 aug. b4 our drive i told my sis tat i wish 2 meet elephant when we pass gerik...hehex...my sis say i crazy...but dunno y i juz feel like wanna meet elephant ler....i so tired tat morning coz d nite b4 tat i went lim teh v wan ying they all till midnite(n not yet pack my things some more),n i sleep so late...Zzz but i din sleep all d way waiting elephant!!!!at first i saw snake in d road,i tot i was some1 old tyre..haha
afetr tat my sis shout:elephant!!!haha...i ask my dad 2 slow down....but it was not d big elephant...it was juz young elephant eating.....so cute!!!!!i'm so happy...finally i saw elephant!!

after at penang,i juz eat n sleep...haha..enjoy my holiday!!!my bro came join us at penang 2 attend convo.....it was sunny day...n i bcame my sis camera gal walau A...so hot(u know i hate sun)i sweat all my shirt!!!!wat 2 do...better thn raining lo....rite?

haha...n i eat a loy in penang..now bcame fat gal ady:-p

haiz.....i sick ady lar!!!!din go sch 4 2 days lor....juz sore throat de actually...thn fever n flu come 2gether....sob sob.....at first du1 c doctor de...but quite serious..no choice lor....go c doctor lor(actually i dun like c doctor)...din c better..who knows after i c the doctor,i allergic wif the medicine....damn!!!!!get more serious...luckily 2day mummy goin down kb thn fetch me back home....so pity if sick at outside....at home better...comfort....i love my home sweet home!!!!

BAD DAY!!!!

原本回家的心情是很好的...但是从kb开始就没有seat....就一路站到machang....到了machang好不容易找到seat....结果碰到一个很有蟑螂味的马来仔.... u know???他们多么的"香"??haiz....没办法啦....没有位了嘛....勉强忍着咯....天知道，bus真的不好坐!!尤其m'sia的...更是糟!!!又一个马来uncle挤进已经满的seat....XXX!!!害我和爱玲俩share一个位子....我已经很不爽了ok??隔壁那个混蛋王八蛋马来仔竟然色到...厚!有够讨厌.....真想@#%&*!#@%$.....他还不时靠向我叻!!!!真是WTF....结果我忍不住在machang下车....整辆bus挤得像sardin bun...我讲excuse me...他们竟答"bahaso gapo ni?tok pehe..."真的有够笨咯.....气死我!!!!!还好淑珍在machang...出外靠朋友果然不错!!古人的话真有智慧.....下次要是还碰到酱无赖的人....我真的动口也动手!!!!太过分了....还好这星期六我没去要去学校运动会....可以在家待久一点....不然我脾气可引发暴风雨了....

haiz...goin back 2day...i really love kk so much...better thn other place...although juz a small place 4 others...but 4 me??it means a lot...my childhood life...teenagers life...my wild life v frenz...hang out v them at nite goin out lim teh...lots of activities we did 2gether...my frenz...all r truly frenz...can i found those kind of frenz out ter?i dunno...cant imagine...aiyo...miss my frenz...all busy v their own life...when juz can all of us gather again??lol....hope tat time come soon....i'm waiting!!!!frenz...part of life...miss u guys!!!

so tired!!!yesterday went 2 co-cu activities till 6..was playing ping ping wif siew shuang n dunno y suddenly talk bout last time our SYP chinese society activities....damn miss it!!!thn we talk bout form2 crazy things we did in class...still remember we play ping pong in class..haha...having fun all d year..n chaang hoong cut his palm coz playing wif knife....n we sleep in class...haha...even wif MAA pillow....our wild life in SYP....still can remember clearly....n today i repeat coz i sleep in class when my MUET sir was "bibbling"...he always did tis 2 his MUET class....n tis afternoon i had PBSM...we march!!!juz likne in ns camp...my experience in kawat in ns...actually quite nice de...cant believe i can enjoy all those things now..haha...suddenly i miss my time in ns!!!!